How would you define beauty? Can you define beauty? Perhaps approaching 40 has sent my mind into moments of existential thinking. Perhaps the realization that I spend my life helping and serving others but feel a sense of helplessness in a moment when from the depths of my soul I want to help in any way I can while at the same time realizing that those things I can help with won’t change the fact that in the grand scheme of the situation nothing I do can will change the outcome. As this thought reclines in a chair with it’s feet up in my mind all I can do is cover it with a blanket so for a second it doesn’t exist.
It is impossible to find beauty when you allow chaos to reign in your life, your thoughts, your words and your actions. So how do you get to a place where you can define beauty?
From 16 – 25 give or take a few years beauty was looking perfect at all times, so I did.
From 25 – 30 beauty was getting any man I wanted, when I wanted him and most the time I did.
At 30 something changed. I left the house without make-up on, without my hair done, wearing pajamas but people still called me beautiful. Huh?
My first son was born about 2 1/2 weeks before I turned 30. For the first time in my life I understood beauty. It was so simple. Beauty was no longer dependent on an outside image. Beauty was defined by love. So to define beauty you have to understand it’s relation to love. Love never ends so beauty must never fade. So now, I define beauty this way:
The laughter shared with my friends and family
The love that holds on to hope when it seems senseless to do so.
The unintentional smile on my boys faces when I kiss them softly on the cheek as they sleep
Stopping to help when you don’t have time to stop
Doing everything you can even when you realize it won’t change anything
Holding my newborn niece in my arms with her sister on my lap as she gently touches her face
Seeing the smile on my boys faces when they realize I’m there cheering them on
Wiping the tears from my boys faces when they didn’t win the trophy because winning is about doing your best.
My heart melting when my boys see a single tear drop from my eyes so they come to my side and tell me jokes
Beauty is kicking those thoughts of helplessness out of the recliner so you see the beauty in every moment and you keep loving, doing, laughing and spending every moment you have filled with joy because you have that moment.
Beauty and love are synonymous. Without love, you can’t see the simple beauty before you. Without true inner beauty, you’ll never recognize love.
How do you define beauty?
Have a happy night and thanks for reading my brain splatter 
